Saw this on Mr Tang's Facebook status and yea, I think it's damn true. Everyone has their own share of troubles and I got mine too. Someone from my secondary sch once commented that I'm very fortunate to be so "happy go lucky" and they want to be like me like that. Everyday just smile and smile dun need worry about anything but that's not true at all loh. How i wish i can geniunely smile and smile everyday. haix.
Actually behind every smile there's a sad story de. It's just that I dun like to show my sad face to everyone(though nowadays i'm showing it more often coz of work ): ) coz like what I mentioned earlier, I believe everyone has their own share of troubles ba, that's y I dun wan to make them more troubled by my own share of troubles. To put it in the words of Mr Tang, I prefer "独自淋雨" as compared to "找人撑伞陪你度过" ba. Maybe that's y nowadays I feel so stressed coz I keep too many things to myself le. I got lots of problems at work but i dun share them with anyone. Haix.
You may ask why do I not share my problems wif anyone? Well, that's coz nowadays I got no more seniors le. No more Stephen and Marcus liao coz they all ORD le. So now the most experienced guy(not counting Darryl) is me so yea, my jrs look up to me and i dun wanna show them any signs of weakness =( I wanna be the guy that the office can depend on and ppl can rely on but it's hard being such a hero. Haix. Responsibility and leadership are two ordinary words in the english language but in reality it's such a heavy burden to carry.
I dun wanna fail and dun wanna let anymore ppl down already. I think so far in my 20 yrs of life, I have let countless ppl down liao and I dun wanna add to that number anymore. All those nights I spent regretting abt my actions and all, I dun wan them no longer. It's time to change and stop disappointing people liao. Everyone has such high hopes for me, ranging from my men, my colleagues and my superiors. My men, people like farhan and fairdaus, both who are older than me and have ord-ed already, they respect me for my actions and i dun wanna let them down. my colleagues like ben and darryl and even wei foong's understudy all ask me for advice and help at times of difficulty. I dun wanna let them down. My superiors like ms ai nah, mr neo, ms joyce, ms doreen, my boss, mr anand and all the other people that ask me for help, i dun wanna disappoint them too.
So god please bless me. Even though I know i'm living behind a facade of being very ups, but please dun let this facade fall until at least I ord. Give me the strength to pull through and tahan until I ord coz I simple dun wanna disappoint anyone anymore.
That's all for tonight le people. Hope you are not too affected by what I wrote today ba. Jia you everyone and of coz jia you to me too ba!
Ciao!
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